18 reasons

You’re not the breath I breathe, just the sweet scent that I enjoy. You’re not the sights I see, just the most beautiful of them. You’re not the water I drink, just the flavor that makes it taste so good. You’re not the ground I walk on, just the partner I sometimes lean on. You’re not the blood in my veins, just what makes it burn so sweetly. You’re not my life, just the one I want to spend it with. You’re not my world, just the best thing in it.

I had a goofy ass smile on my face at work all day. Thank you.

Only 14 days has passed in 2010 and it has been Awesome, with a capital A!

Yay for 2010!

‘ I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d say it had a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong. What if you make a mistake you can’t undo.’

For ahem, you know who you are!

“I have moved on.”

We are all familiar with these words. We all are. If someone said this, do you think it’s true? When do we know if this is true or is just one of the “I think” lines and stuff? Does this line only apply to relationships?

And after saying these words, what’s next?

When we say moving on, it does not limit its meaning to something related to relationships. The words “moving on” also applies to people we have lost along the way, bad and hurtful experiences from the past, etc. It’s something that we occasionally do or experience every once in a while. Moving on does not entirely mean that we have forgotten someone, it could be that we are now feeling fine after feeling awful for a long time.

Moving on is an activity that can take as long as we want, or just for a while, depends entirely on the person who is moving forward. Moving on can be done by everyone. Not just by someone, but everyone. If someone died, at first it might be hard for you to accept that a person you loved so much is gone. After the loss, next thing that a person should do is to move on. It’s not going to be easy but as long as you know that you have to, you’ll be okay. Moving on is a process. It can’t be forced just as if you’re telling yourself harshly the words, “Hey idiot, move on!” It’s nothing like that.

Moving on can’t be forced. Again, it’s a process that one has to undergo to free his or herself from the pain. It’s not one thing that you’ll just say just to prove people that “Hey, I’m okay!” it shouldn’t be like that. The more you force yourself to move on, the longer time it will take you to fully let yourself go of the past. When we move on, we learn about different things, and that’s one way for us to be strong and wise in the next endeavors to come. Moving on is learning on how to accept things. We can’t move on if we can’t accept what happened in the past. Acceptance is one key element when moving on. There has to be an acceptance so that we eventually get to free ourselves from the misery that we had. Moving on is Acceptance. Acceptance is moving on.

As what I’ve said a while ago, moving on is a process. With moving on comes great acceptance. Along with this, moving on also comes with the part where we have to let go of everything completely. Well, “completely” is not the right word for that, but just as long as we have let go of this one painful piece of our lives, we should be okay. We’re moving on. Why did I say that “completely” is not the right word? We may have moved on but there will always be one part of us that will always remember the past, only that when we have moved on, those painful things will only be thought of as memories, not painful experiences.

Say that we have already moved on? What’s next? Simple, congratulate yourself. Moving on is not an easy thing to do. It takes a lot of will not to think about the past, and heal yourself from everything that had happened. There are a lot of stop signs when we move on. What are those? The past itself. We can never move on unless we still think about what happened. Reminiscing, remembering, and all the other words that could define these two words are the stops from us letting go of everything.

Moving on is another way to heal. When we say moving on, the word healing comes into our minds. Moving on is a time to heal all wounds. It takes time. It may leave marks afterwards, but you’ll feel better in time. All wounds take time to heal. And it’s the same thing when we move on. Feeling better comes after moving on, feeling all good and fine.

Going back to what’s next after moving on, again, congratulate yourself. If you need to thank people, then do it. When you have moved on, it could lead you to two things: first is, going back to what you usually do; second, you go back, but along with going back to the way that it was before, you improve yourself, make yourself strong, and be the best person that you can be. Which of the two should you pick? Both ways provide you the option of going back, but one has “additional” inputs to it. So, make your choice.

Speaking of making choices, moving on is also about making choices. Sometimes, people find it hard to move on. But could it be that it’s just their choice to keep on thinking about the past and to not move on at all? It’s one simple thing, again, moving on is a choice. If you chose not to, then you’re just letting yourself get stuck with the past and ignoring everything that the world is showing you. Moving on is also our way of growing up. We learn from the experiences, grow from it, and improve from it.

Always remember that we all deserve to be happy. Do not deprive yourself from being happy with what the world has to make you see. There are a lot of things that could make you happy. Do not deprive yourself from growing and learning. We are the captains of our own ships. We are the ones who mandates, and makes our own choices. God is just showing us the map, a plan that He has for us, it’s up to us if we will follow God’s map for us or not.

2009 was a great year, all in all, matured and grown. I’ve learnt so many life lessons in a year, it’s amazing.

Thanks all who made 2009 such an awesome year. 2009 really marks a year worth remembering.

Ultimate-Winning IVP, NYTP, KL Opens, SG Opens. The fire is still burning, the passion is still as strong as ever. Thanks so much NYP, DK, NYTP! And of course, thank you Ben.

School-Finished TEP the most boring attachment ever. IPPT finishing in 6 weeks!

IPPT- In Bates and i never expected myself to learn so much in the working life. It took priorities and time management to the next level. And of course the salary is a bonus heh.

The people:

Hayden-The most awesome sister anyone can have, the late night talks to all the secrets and sharing almost everything we have. Thanks for the great 20 years.

Family-Been neglecting my family for a bit this year, thank you for being so understanding. And you never stop pampering me, i know im like spoilt heh. Thanks for all the love!

Thanks Hussain, for being the best bro anyone can ever have. For knocking so much sense into me and being there for me everytime without fail. Stop pinching my fats thanks.

Enrique-The lunches, steamboat and great times together.

XY-The sis who’s there for me every single time, listening to my rants and that that that layout-d. i tell you, im getting it back.

Nick-The most annoying creature on Earth. But heh thanks so much, you really made the end of 2009 AWESOME! Dumb dumb!

Janice-I see you almost everyday, so sick alr, kthxbye heh! Thanks for all the crazy moments, in school, in ultimate.

The girls-Ale, Sya, Ching, Beat, Jen, Cherish-i hardly see you girls now, except all the bday meetups but you girls have been great fun as well this year. Thanks for always encouraging and being the bimbos i love =)

YinCi-My roommate, my idol! Thanks for all the guidance, for being a great and encouraging mentor and someone i can always look up to.

Alvin-Thanks for always giving us a ride heh. Sorry always late whoops. And and you better keep that secret to yourself!!!

C.S.-Scandal! Your nonsense and jokes never fail to cheer me up.

JS,JY-You pair of sisters have been great fun. Please keep all secrets to yourselves thanks.

Ultimate- Thanks for helping me grow, both in Ultimate and as a person. It really helped me develop and im so glad i stuck through this sport with you people in it.

2009-of ultimate, first heart-break to moving on, to testing of friendships, to champions, to the drunk moments, to boat-races, to learning to huck, to partying to steamboats.

2010, here i come!

“And strum my fingers gently across your skin, like I was playing the slowest love song in the world and only you and I could hear it.”

Take my hand come with me
It’s like I’ve waited my whole life for this one night
It’s gonna be me you and the dance floor
’cause we’ve only got one night

Feels like we’re on another level
Feels like our loves intertwined,
We can be two rebels breaking the rules
me and you, you and I